There's a machine I see sometimes in my dreams. It's that magical counterpart to the What If? machine where you can actually see what your life could have been like, and could be like, and what you'd have to do to make it like that.

It's totally unrealistic, but I have vague ideas that make me wish I had it. Of course, these same ideas make me wish I was a better person. But I don't, and I'm not. I guess we all deal with the fact that we're horrible people in our own way.