Almost a year.

That's about right. In fact, in twelve days, it will be exactly one year after my previous post. (Now, the definition of what "exactly" means is different. Do I mean 52 weeks? (That's not quite it. That's only 364 days.) Do I mean one year as described in seconds? (At least that's on the 16th, but it's off by several hours.) But that's a question for another time, yes?)

What have I done in the past 8,472 hours? (As a Star Trek fan, that's particularly awesome.) Pretty much nothing. Except begin to go insane. But that's really not something I want to go into right now. I'm having trouble discussing that with my wife, and regardless of the publicity of this blog, it is out there, and I have no interest in going into detail about my mental health, or lack of same. I've been burned by this thing before.

Anyway. One of my friends has talked about using her blog more, and it reminded me that hey, I have a few of these. One is a for-profit, the others are not. One is a political and thoughtful blog, the others are...well, they're supposed to be. Anyway, I figure that if it helps keep certain distressing events to a minimum, I'll likely become more active here, as well as a few other places I rediscovered lately.

--Cougar

So, I suppose the e-mail thing will work. I hope it does. So not only
do I have job hunting, but I have my meager blog income to think
about. And on top of that, I took mucho extra commitment from ACW this
week. So this week should be fun.

So I've posted three reviews on Bonus Track, which is my for-profit music review blog. Also, I managed to complete my short to-do list in my last post, and now have a pretty badass new one. Also, my iGoogle home page is looking fairly robust. The only thing I need beyond that is to get independent Internet access back so that I can resume my studies in Java. Eventually, I'll complete both of my projects in that language.

God, I'm tired.

I probably shouldn't even be up this late. It's quarter to three in the fucking morning, and I can't really calm myself down enough to sleep. Today was such a fucking roller-coaster ride, and now I'm still buzzed. Granted, when I finally get to bed, I'll probably drop off almost instantaneously.

More later, hopefully. I'm going to try to keep regularly updating this.

Stuff to do:

-Get iGoogle to do list.
-Fill it with stuff.

There's a machine I see sometimes in my dreams. It's that magical counterpart to the What If? machine where you can actually see what your life could have been like, and could be like, and what you'd have to do to make it like that.

It's totally unrealistic, but I have vague ideas that make me wish I had it. Of course, these same ideas make me wish I was a better person. But I don't, and I'm not. I guess we all deal with the fact that we're horrible people in our own way.

I'm Tired.

I'm tired of fighting, I'm tired of, well, really everything. This has been going on about a week. Either she's going to give up on me and leave, or she's going to not give up on me. That's it.

And I'm really not sure I'm willing to work with her anymore.

It's been a while...

But hey, I figure I've got two blogs for a reason. One for personal posts, and the other for my random rants and suchlike.

It's been a hell of a year. Allie and I have moved, not once, not twice, but four times since my last post in Heaven and Harmony, and we'd moved between my last post here and then. It's been a pretty hectic year. I've now lived in five different states, and it gives me an...interesting idea of how things are in different parts of the country. And yet...I'm formulating an opinion, and it'll be an opinion for Heaven and Harmony, so I won't go into too many details here. Suffice it to say, life is much simpler than we make it out to be.

In any case, it's 3 AM, so I should probably be getting to sleep, so I can have a hopefully productive day before Allie has to pick up the little boy she's babysitting.